Years ago when I was still living in Chicago, before I had decided to "move" to India, I was catching up with some old friends I knew from the class that helped change my life. As Mandela, Kenya, and I walked down the pier, I shared with them the wisdom that had suddenly and unexpectedly thrust itself upon me. "As a grown man ... you have to decide what it is you want and go fucking get it." It had, and has, become that simple for me. There is no one else in this world (the Lord being above it) that truly knows what it is we want. And why shouldn't we actively pursue that which it is that we want most?! Do we so blindingly fear failure to such an extent that we have convinced ourselves it is better not to search after what we truly want as we are destined to fall short?!... Another revelation, as simple as it seems, was while watching a Tigers game. I sat and marvelled how as a child I had idolized the athletes on my favourite squads, and how they were grown men, how they were professionals - special and gifted. But as I watched I realized that these guys were now younger than me! I had become a full grown man!.. so why couldn't I be special and gifted too?! Writers, painters, poets; they also are human. So why not trust that AT WORST my odds are like flipping a coin, 50-50, but that really the universe conspires towards my happiness...
Heck yeah! Go get it!
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